You have experienced fear, haven't u?
Fear= fright, dread, terror, horror, panic, alarm, dismay, consternation, trepidation
I would like to give an example....
I am also a victim of the same... one moment or the other. But nowadays, i am confronting a new kind of fear, that i didn't have till now. Stage Fear! Another interesting part of this phenomenon is that it does not happen whenever i am on stage, but under certain conditions only. The end result? I would be blank at least for 10seconds on stage. I know, 10 seconds are nothing; but on stage, that's not so. I 'll be left with a much lesser amount of self confidence.
Though i don't know the reasons for this awkward and strange fear, i am trying to face it and go against it.
But there are certain fears that you can not face that easily. A pessimistic note to end :)
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
Food i did cook yesterday....
Dont think that this is some sort of recipe providing blog... I made some dishes for my sister to reduce her exam fever. I was successful, until she saw her book again... She told me that the food was awesome and so i thought i could put in the blog :)
Warning: Since this is an experimental recipe, no responsibility 'll be claimed if u try this at ur home and anything happens to u or whomsoever concerned!
Chicken fry with some salad and parched egg
things u need:
(by d way, i dint measure any ingredients, so nothing much about the quantity)
chicken breast or fillets
tomato (preferably cherry tomato)
cabbage
spring onion
yellow pepper
soya sauce
salt
sugar
eggs
oil
(now for marinade)
salt
red chilly powder
gram masala powder
turmeric powder
vinegar (3 tsp)
red onion (4)
a few drops of oil
egg white
how to do:
mix marinade in a blender and paste it over the chicken( by the way, chicken should be thinly cut). leave it for at least 2hrs. now heat a non-stick pan with some ( i mean a little) oil in it and fry the chicken. In another pan, pour some soya sauce, 3 or 4 pinch of sugar n 1 tsp of salt (i guess). now when it starts boiling (just starting), u need to add tomato (if its small like a cherry, then don't cut it, or else cut it in big slices only) and the cabbage(that should be thin and long). let the tomatoes get burnt. then take it out. by now, our chicken 'll be fried. now it needs a hard texture (need to give a dry texture), so put it in d microwave for about 3.30 or 4 mins. get the egg scrambled or parched in a frying pan. take the chicken and the saute salad with the egg.
needless to say that this will taste good with a glass of red wine. also the best combination with this is bread and mushroom cream soup. those things u can find by yourself, i just cooked a knorr soup packet.
It 'll be bad if don't mention the person who inspired me. A friend of mine lightened up my mood and i felt really happy about it, because such an experience always gives u a feeling that one way or the other someone 'll be there to give u company; cud be parent or friend or boy/girl friend or relative.... all that matters would b that if u r ready to accept it or not
:)
Warning: Since this is an experimental recipe, no responsibility 'll be claimed if u try this at ur home and anything happens to u or whomsoever concerned!
Chicken fry with some salad and parched egg
things u need:
(by d way, i dint measure any ingredients, so nothing much about the quantity)
chicken breast or fillets
tomato (preferably cherry tomato)
cabbage
spring onion
yellow pepper
soya sauce
salt
sugar
eggs
oil
(now for marinade)
salt
red chilly powder
gram masala powder
turmeric powder
vinegar (3 tsp)
red onion (4)
a few drops of oil
egg white
how to do:
mix marinade in a blender and paste it over the chicken( by the way, chicken should be thinly cut). leave it for at least 2hrs. now heat a non-stick pan with some ( i mean a little) oil in it and fry the chicken. In another pan, pour some soya sauce, 3 or 4 pinch of sugar n 1 tsp of salt (i guess). now when it starts boiling (just starting), u need to add tomato (if its small like a cherry, then don't cut it, or else cut it in big slices only) and the cabbage(that should be thin and long). let the tomatoes get burnt. then take it out. by now, our chicken 'll be fried. now it needs a hard texture (need to give a dry texture), so put it in d microwave for about 3.30 or 4 mins. get the egg scrambled or parched in a frying pan. take the chicken and the saute salad with the egg.
needless to say that this will taste good with a glass of red wine. also the best combination with this is bread and mushroom cream soup. those things u can find by yourself, i just cooked a knorr soup packet.
It 'll be bad if don't mention the person who inspired me. A friend of mine lightened up my mood and i felt really happy about it, because such an experience always gives u a feeling that one way or the other someone 'll be there to give u company; cud be parent or friend or boy/girl friend or relative.... all that matters would b that if u r ready to accept it or not
:)
Monday, February 2, 2009
The Chennai Trip
I was wondering why I was not writing even a tini-tiny little post when i have soo many topic and so much of time...Anyways, without boring, i 'll let you know the latest topic in my mind.
It's about the chennai visit i had. To IIT Madras, for Saarang '09.
It was from Uni-y, and it was a last-minute plan. Well, i reached the railway station almost 1 hour before the departure. But the gang started coming just 15 minutes before the train started. In the meantime i was trying to make my dad advise me...like "Don't you think achaa(dad) that you should give me some advise regarding the trip...something". But i guess he thought i knew everything i should need to know. He looked at me and simply smiled. We had enough time so we chit chatted about how the railway system should be, and all. My friends(college-mates) came to say a "good-bye....and buy something for us too" :)... So when it was time, me and akhilesh(A) got into one compartment, and gayathri(G) and binnie(B) in another, according to the seating arrangement. We were waiting for paul(P) and rahul harish(RH). P reached just on time and RH was a half min late. A and P saw him running behind the train, but he missed it. That was a small set back for all of us. A who wrote the script for the street play(which was the only event that we participated with preparation, though the minimum level of preparation) was a little sad about it.
The train journey was good. We memorized the script, added life to the characters. G was doing the negative character in it, which was very important, because we portrait our idea through this. We also had a relief because RH was going to make it by bus (till madurai) and by train(till chennai), and also by auto(till IIT campus). Rahul Sanal (RS) joined us from ernakulam after his pilgrimage 8).....
So cutting it short, we reached Chennai. The moment we set foot on that soil, A and B put their goggles(black cooling glass). We took a darn picture and i like it! RS's pinky uncle( don't think i m making fun of him, its his pet name, i m ignorant of his real name) took us to the campus. I must say he is one person who knows how to modify a car's interior....When we got inside and understood that our accommodation is not gonna happen. All of us were worried. Boy! You should have seen A's face. He was so worried for us( me and G) that for a moment i thought he was about to cry. We tried in every way possible to get a proper accommodation... Then i felt it wont happen that easily. So i called my iit-retired uncle. Then, it was lot much easier... All of us got a place, by night.
That day evening itself, we had the street play. Me and G went to the street play venue and felt if we should really do this. Most of them were pros! Just when we were about enter the stage, RH appeared. So we had our galeo's binocular! We also realized that we have not rehearsed the play even for once. But we practiced on stage, yea we tried for once. It was not that bad.... if i have to write about that it wont be a big post, but a mega post... In short, All of us did good and script was real good thing. Hats off to A....
A was random when it came to his elocution competition, while G was saying why we should go for happiness in her speech. A and RH did a good performance in JAM. B had a spectacular performance in the mono act competition which described his curiosity for "safety measures". Many such things happened. Yea, we participated in many like JAM, elocution, ad zap, mono act... We didn't clear into the finals. I accept that. But all of us were darn good. How could i forget the dinner sponsored by pinky uncle, shopping in Pondy Bazaar, the DJ nite, the magic and the salsa-jive workshops. I loved it when i was trying to relearn 'ass' in front of the ladies hostel at 2am. I loved when a big stag accompanied me. I loved it all.
Though it may seem cliche when i say ' i won't forget this trip', i really mean it. We all were worried when RS got food poisoned, P caught up with a fever, and G had to travel alone. I missed the last day with the guys, they went for outing in the city. I had to travel back alone because i was to be picked up by my relatives (whom i have never seen before, but very warm people).
Explaining everything wont be possible in this 'Lil world', but I enjoyed it all and i dont think another set of uni-yians 'll have the same experience....
It's about the chennai visit i had. To IIT Madras, for Saarang '09.
It was from Uni-y, and it was a last-minute plan. Well, i reached the railway station almost 1 hour before the departure. But the gang started coming just 15 minutes before the train started. In the meantime i was trying to make my dad advise me...like "Don't you think achaa(dad) that you should give me some advise regarding the trip...something". But i guess he thought i knew everything i should need to know. He looked at me and simply smiled. We had enough time so we chit chatted about how the railway system should be, and all. My friends(college-mates) came to say a "good-bye....and buy something for us too" :)... So when it was time, me and akhilesh(A) got into one compartment, and gayathri(G) and binnie(B) in another, according to the seating arrangement. We were waiting for paul(P) and rahul harish(RH). P reached just on time and RH was a half min late. A and P saw him running behind the train, but he missed it. That was a small set back for all of us. A who wrote the script for the street play(which was the only event that we participated with preparation, though the minimum level of preparation) was a little sad about it.
The train journey was good. We memorized the script, added life to the characters. G was doing the negative character in it, which was very important, because we portrait our idea through this. We also had a relief because RH was going to make it by bus (till madurai) and by train(till chennai), and also by auto(till IIT campus). Rahul Sanal (RS) joined us from ernakulam after his pilgrimage 8).....
So cutting it short, we reached Chennai. The moment we set foot on that soil, A and B put their goggles(black cooling glass). We took a darn picture and i like it! RS's pinky uncle( don't think i m making fun of him, its his pet name, i m ignorant of his real name) took us to the campus. I must say he is one person who knows how to modify a car's interior....When we got inside and understood that our accommodation is not gonna happen. All of us were worried. Boy! You should have seen A's face. He was so worried for us( me and G) that for a moment i thought he was about to cry. We tried in every way possible to get a proper accommodation... Then i felt it wont happen that easily. So i called my iit-retired uncle. Then, it was lot much easier... All of us got a place, by night.
That day evening itself, we had the street play. Me and G went to the street play venue and felt if we should really do this. Most of them were pros! Just when we were about enter the stage, RH appeared. So we had our galeo's binocular! We also realized that we have not rehearsed the play even for once. But we practiced on stage, yea we tried for once. It was not that bad.... if i have to write about that it wont be a big post, but a mega post... In short, All of us did good and script was real good thing. Hats off to A....
A was random when it came to his elocution competition, while G was saying why we should go for happiness in her speech. A and RH did a good performance in JAM. B had a spectacular performance in the mono act competition which described his curiosity for "safety measures". Many such things happened. Yea, we participated in many like JAM, elocution, ad zap, mono act... We didn't clear into the finals. I accept that. But all of us were darn good. How could i forget the dinner sponsored by pinky uncle, shopping in Pondy Bazaar, the DJ nite, the magic and the salsa-jive workshops. I loved it when i was trying to relearn 'ass' in front of the ladies hostel at 2am. I loved when a big stag accompanied me. I loved it all.
Though it may seem cliche when i say ' i won't forget this trip', i really mean it. We all were worried when RS got food poisoned, P caught up with a fever, and G had to travel alone. I missed the last day with the guys, they went for outing in the city. I had to travel back alone because i was to be picked up by my relatives (whom i have never seen before, but very warm people).
Explaining everything wont be possible in this 'Lil world', but I enjoyed it all and i dont think another set of uni-yians 'll have the same experience....
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Request to the love birds
It is good if you are in love, and the one you love should also feel the same about you.... BUT there is one thing that most of the lovers forget.... the people around them!
God! When will you(lovers) understand that sometimes all your expressions of love may irritate others????????
Wondering why i am writing this blog.... It all started with our 'dearest' couple. It is perfectly alright if they love each other or they make use of each other in every possible way or whatever... I don't care. But expressing their love in front of all others needs to be cared about.
I am not any emotionless being and not are any others(may be some exceptions are there). I feel ashamed that they are considered to be in the same intellectual levels as ours.... because i have not seen any morons like them irritating people with their disgusting 'love' story and their 'intense' expression for love. Trust me i hate so much about this that i am writing a blog after sooo long!
Now here goes my request to all those love birds out there, PLS DON'T DO THIS TO OTHERS. NO MORE VICTIMS LIKE ME. Its perfectly okay if you love. But don't make it any sort of show.
If you really love him/her, express your love. I am definitely not against it. But please bear in mind what others feel. You have no right to harm anybody in anyway.
God! When will you(lovers) understand that sometimes all your expressions of love may irritate others????????
Wondering why i am writing this blog.... It all started with our 'dearest' couple. It is perfectly alright if they love each other or they make use of each other in every possible way or whatever... I don't care. But expressing their love in front of all others needs to be cared about.
I am not any emotionless being and not are any others(may be some exceptions are there). I feel ashamed that they are considered to be in the same intellectual levels as ours.... because i have not seen any morons like them irritating people with their disgusting 'love' story and their 'intense' expression for love. Trust me i hate so much about this that i am writing a blog after sooo long!
Now here goes my request to all those love birds out there, PLS DON'T DO THIS TO OTHERS. NO MORE VICTIMS LIKE ME. Its perfectly okay if you love. But don't make it any sort of show.
If you really love him/her, express your love. I am definitely not against it. But please bear in mind what others feel. You have no right to harm anybody in anyway.
Friday, June 6, 2008
friendship requires no explanation... but...
Friend could be either a male or a female.. so i am just removing she or he references and naming the person as Z.. no gender biasing.
Z is definitely not my brother/sister nor my boyfriend/girlfriend; Friend, close to heart. When i needed Z's help, Z was always there. Whenever i want to say some secret, Z could be helpful. This Z is so good, that i will ask Z to be in my dowry kit :) ..hey Z no offense please. I believe everyone should have one like Z. How am i gonna repay all these?.. Well, the fact is Z is not expecting me to repay all this in the same way as Z did to me, but i believe Z will expect me to help Z whenever i could.
This is a recent observation that i made in my life. I have two friends say 0 and 1. They were/are really close friends (u wud know why i made it "were/are" in the sentence after u read d post). 0 met with a tragedy in its life and wanted 1 to help it to get through ( emotional support) 0 always asked rest of its friends to ask 1 to come and meet 0. But 1 acted as though it dint know 0 as closely as it did. 1 dint come to support 0 as much as 0 expected..... my observation could be incomplete, but i m judgmental here from this observation. 1 could hav atleast acted a bit more concerned about 0. that's my view. But it stirs me up, as i ( i would say a more distant friend) had to push 1 to see 0. If i were 0, definitely i would have given a punch on 1's nose and then requested 1 to be a better friend ( though i would never let 1 go away from my friends circle)
Z is definitely not my brother/sister nor my boyfriend/girlfriend; Friend, close to heart. When i needed Z's help, Z was always there. Whenever i want to say some secret, Z could be helpful. This Z is so good, that i will ask Z to be in my dowry kit :) ..hey Z no offense please. I believe everyone should have one like Z. How am i gonna repay all these?.. Well, the fact is Z is not expecting me to repay all this in the same way as Z did to me, but i believe Z will expect me to help Z whenever i could.
This is a recent observation that i made in my life. I have two friends say 0 and 1. They were/are really close friends (u wud know why i made it "were/are" in the sentence after u read d post). 0 met with a tragedy in its life and wanted 1 to help it to get through ( emotional support) 0 always asked rest of its friends to ask 1 to come and meet 0. But 1 acted as though it dint know 0 as closely as it did. 1 dint come to support 0 as much as 0 expected..... my observation could be incomplete, but i m judgmental here from this observation. 1 could hav atleast acted a bit more concerned about 0. that's my view. But it stirs me up, as i ( i would say a more distant friend) had to push 1 to see 0. If i were 0, definitely i would have given a punch on 1's nose and then requested 1 to be a better friend ( though i would never let 1 go away from my friends circle)
Saturday, May 10, 2008
My first job interview....
That day,
I was sad, when my friends got a job and i could not even make myself appear for it. I had history of backlogs... I spent half a night crying for it, feeling wothless. Yea, i am an emotional creature. But i don't deny it....
Today,
I was not sure this morning if i should go for this job seeking process, felt so little ( can't explain why) and excuse was also there, i am sick (climate change caused heavy fever). But then everything that i did yesterday say resume making, getting photocopy of my marklists etc would be in vain. So i thought I should go and try it. After all what there is for a loser like me to lose! Nothing...
When I was called among the few students who got selected after the written aptitude exam, i was happy...
When the HR interview happened and the interviewer said that i am one among those people who really impressed him, something in my heart said there is always a good time that life would give you. Trust life, your strength, God ( something that you feel that you could trust, dont know how to define God)...
Feels ataraxia!
I was sad, when my friends got a job and i could not even make myself appear for it. I had history of backlogs... I spent half a night crying for it, feeling wothless. Yea, i am an emotional creature. But i don't deny it....
Today,
I was not sure this morning if i should go for this job seeking process, felt so little ( can't explain why) and excuse was also there, i am sick (climate change caused heavy fever). But then everything that i did yesterday say resume making, getting photocopy of my marklists etc would be in vain. So i thought I should go and try it. After all what there is for a loser like me to lose! Nothing...
When I was called among the few students who got selected after the written aptitude exam, i was happy...
When the HR interview happened and the interviewer said that i am one among those people who really impressed him, something in my heart said there is always a good time that life would give you. Trust life, your strength, God ( something that you feel that you could trust, dont know how to define God)...
Feels ataraxia!
Monday, April 7, 2008
An escape
I want to dream, i want to dream a lot.
Because in my dreams i am free.
Free from My relations in which i am not a part,
Free from the Faces that i have to wear.
This freedom is too costly, isn't it??
When i want to laugh aloud with my friends,
I want them to go away, if they can't be with me.
When i want to cry as my heart aches,
I want peace , if not comforting shoulders.
I am definitely wanting more, what else could it be?
My heart is bleeding, but i don't feel the pain.
I am numb, with thoughtless mind.
I know something is missing, don't know what it is.
But still this question is in my head.
I am alive, ain't?
I dont want to die nor live like this.
An escape would be better, funny!
Is the coward in me speaking out too loud?
Everyone has a part of it, don't they?
An escape!! Funny, isn't it?
Because in my dreams i am free.
Free from My relations in which i am not a part,
Free from the Faces that i have to wear.
This freedom is too costly, isn't it??
When i want to laugh aloud with my friends,
I want them to go away, if they can't be with me.
When i want to cry as my heart aches,
I want peace , if not comforting shoulders.
I am definitely wanting more, what else could it be?
My heart is bleeding, but i don't feel the pain.
I am numb, with thoughtless mind.
I know something is missing, don't know what it is.
But still this question is in my head.
I am alive, ain't?
I dont want to die nor live like this.
An escape would be better, funny!
Is the coward in me speaking out too loud?
Everyone has a part of it, don't they?
An escape!! Funny, isn't it?
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